Today is early on Thursday, like usual i wake up and settle my bed. I open the windows of my room. hmmm.. i see all still the same as yesterday. and i imagining something i always do everyday. still no different with the past. I lean on the wall, and thinking why i feel that kinda bored with my runitity. i want to do something that make me more advantageous. what can i do what can i learn everyday, i still don't know the special skill inside me. feel so lonely now.

" maybe i can sing loudly? but my parent would be angry when i shouting...hufhhhhh but i don't think anything else to do" Reiny says while try to open each books stand on her table.

i dream that i never think before, more over i don't know why my life so hard like this. seem like i don't have any motivation to grow more. I am not a child anymore but i am not adult too, what define for me then. i never enjoy what i do. just give me one clue for remember something cause i have lost my way. The clock never stop the time. but i still find the reson for my question everyday every second i always think of it.

I try to write my lyric and sometime i would like to compose it into a song... arghhhhh just my dream is it? I don't even know how to make a melody or i never have chance to play guitar. uhmmm maybe when i was five my dad bought me pianika that moment i began to love the sound of that  instrument, i like soft tune like piano and guitar. but i don't have plan to learn it nobody agreed for me to do it. okay forget it, dream is just a dream. i must go bact to my reality now. life so long long road i might can not passed it alone. there is somebody that tell that he loves me but i don't think its 100 % true and never changed. cause i absolutely know people changed so easy when they don't like something.

Finally today i plan for  plant some vegetable and look at my lil chicken its enough for amuse me sometime.

" fiuuuhhh... may be it is enough my todays dairy? i would write again later when i found something fun. " Reiny says while put down her pen

at the last sentence she write her feeling into lyrics

give me time give me chance

to walk with you again

no one here nobody care

to make an entertain

should i run from this way

to an unknown place to find new friend

do they would like to know

what's on my back is so miserable

ohhh..

give me time give me chance

to talk with you again

no one here nobody care

to make an entertain

you know i feel so lonely

when you are not around me

i used to lean on your shoulder

you hug me tight when i suffer

now tell me why you go far away

leave me without any single say

oh give me time give me chance

to know about you again

i want you here i love your care

to make me entertain

ohhhhhhh ohhhhhhh yeaaaaaa